Tuesday, January 26, 2010

A Candle In the Window: Loving Someone, Even When you Can't

Today, my sister and I each put a candle in the window for our Dad.
It has long been an American tradition, since colonial times, to put a candle out for show of loyalty to a departed loved one. Similar things such as banners, and ribbons around trees, have also been used ... to convey a yearning for the return of a dear friend or family member.

Although our father is absent, it is not his physical return that we yearn for. It is his spiritual one. More than anything, Tay and I want to see him return to his Creator in repentance. For now, it is safest to stay far away from him ... but we have never prayed so much for anyone in our lives. Those candles in the window, remind us that our father is lost ... he's departed not only from the house, but from God ... and it is critical for us to pray for his salvation.

Jesus instructs us to love one another, just as He loved us (John 15:12). But how can Tay and I do that, when it is dangerous to be around this person we are commanded to love?

Prayer is the best way to love someone, even when they're desperately hurting you.

I have to be honest. At times, it is hard for me to love my Dad. I don't feel like praying "Lord ... Help him to come to see himself for who he is, that he may repent and have eternal life ..." Instead, I feel like screaming to the heavens: "You know, God. I wouldn't mind that fire and brimstone talk right about now!!!" You know what I'm talking about here?? I can't help these feelings!!

But whenever I get angry, I know that is only by humbling myself, and remembering how great and just God really is, that I can remember to love.

Love is what those candles stand for. I love my Dad enough to pray for him constantly ... And one day, I know God will answer my prayer. Either by bringing him to repentance, or keeping him depraved - both will show the glory of the Lord in some way. In this, I must trust.

Forever in the arms of her True Father,
Lauren Lee

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God, and the peace of God, which suprasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." ~Philippians 4:6

1 comment:

Anonymous said...


What a blessing to see how deeply you've drunk from the well of Scripture. Your words are such a blessing to me. I'm most impressed, Lauren, by your willingness to submit your thoughts and emotions to God. I'm also thankful that I know now how to pray for you with clarity and precision.

Mr. Dennis

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